Ok, so i'll be goin to U of I again for the PSA formal, otherwise known as Topher's Cotillion. I know i haven't blogged in a while, but that's to be expected of me, right? So i thought that today i'd leave you with a song. there are those times that come up, when i'm in my room, and all of the sudden i hear a song n it just remind me of stuff...like the words point to a time in my life, or something that i'm goin through. of course, that happens to everyone, right? but i'm pretty sure that only a few people actually start crying-crying when they hear a song...not just tearing, but actually crying. well that happened to me a couple of weeks ago...the song is My Immortal by Evanescence. it's a beautiful song, don't get me wrong, but when i stopped to actually listen to the words, it just reminded me of my mom n everything we went through for so long...n i started to cry in the comfort of my own room. i know, i'm all sad in stuff today, but hey! this wkd will be good n i'll tell u all about it on sunday or monday.

My Immortal, by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me