i'll make it short n sweet fer now...this wks unconscious mutterings:

  1. Angel::eyes
  2. Birth::canal
  3. Logic::puzzles
  4. Stars::in the sky...multitude
  5. Nursery::rhymes
  6. View::room with a
  7. Hart::wolfram &
  8. Creation::genesis
  9. End::beginning
  10. Fortune::teller


friday 5 first, then u can click on some new quizzes!!

When was the last time you...

1. ...went to the doctor?
i think last year march or something...

2. ...went to the dentist?
shooooooooooot...it's been a while...i think i should start searching.... ;)

3. ...filled your gas tank?
i have no gas tank :D

4. ...got enough sleep?
enough sleep?? hm...adequate sleep last saturday nite. not enough, but adequate.

5. ...backed up your computer?
naw...tho i've defragged/disk cleanup...i kno where u can find the back up option, but i've never tried it, nor really know wut it entails. :D

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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you suck, and that's sad
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit

which happy bunny are you?
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song of the week/month/year...heard it from melanie and maui...can't really remember who i heard it from first...prolly mel, but u never know ;).

Troubled Mind by Catie Curtis

I've been getting down about all the run-around
About all the pushing and the standing in line
But like my friends say, you gotta do it anyway
And it just gets harder when you ask why
And I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
Let me lay down in your arms
Down in your arms
I've been getting up early, I've been getting my coffee
I've been getting in the car and driving all over town
Talking to myself while I'm taking off my seatbelt
Some people don't know how to slow down
And I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
Let me lay down in your arms
Down in your arms
I've got a troubled, a troubled mind
And you've got a heart, a heart so kind
So kind
So pack an overnight bag, don't worry about what you have
'Cause if you need something, you can just use mine
And you don't have to promise more than you want to
But if you want to see me, this would be a good time
'Cause I'm tired from all the weight
Tired of being strong
So won't you come and stay
Let me lay down in your arms
Down in your arms

i think this sums it up pretty well...me n my family, ya kno? just tired...goin through the motions, cuz at this point, wut am i supposed to do? so i actually wake up early...like 6:15 every morning...then i go to work. and on the weekends, sometimes i just wake up at 9am, and i don't mean to. shoooooot, i could wake up at like 1pm if i could. i don't think i can hang anymore...but it's ok. when i go down to chambana for PSA's FS, those lil kiddies will prolly be able to handle it more than i could. but it'll happen to them too ;). well that's all for now...other than i miss people...not just my family members, but some of the people i used to chill with...i dunno...i've been in a real funk where if ppl don't call me, i'm just too damn lazy to call them. i dunno....

gnite... *sigh*


this'll be a long entry, so lemme get straight to it.

i'm new to tarot. christine has had a tarot deck since she was in hs. i'd always ask her to do my 'fortune,' but she'd always say later, which ended up to be never. but i'm not bitter really ;). so ever since then, i was intrigued by tarot...the pretty cards, the possibility that it could all be true... i've always been interested in pretty much the same things as christine like astrology, comics, dragons, books, magic... claudine never took the same interests as we did, but that's kewl. she's the different and not as weird one, u kno, the sane one. :D. hehehe...anyhoo, this is about ME, not my sisters!

so on friday, me, melanie n marilyn went out to eat sushi and watch big fish. b/w food n the movie, we had some time, so we went to barnes to check the books out. i go straight to the puzzles, cuz i like to give them to my friends...and then i had to find melanie n marilyn. they were in the new age aisle, lookin at cards n stuff. melanie picked out a couple kewl ones. i didn't think i'd buy any of the card they had on the shelves, but then i saw a display of the kind of cards they additionally sell in the front. i've always thought about eventually buying a deck, and i knew they had multiple decks, tho i never new the difference. as i was flipping through some of the examples of different decks, i gravitated towards one that i knew i definitely want to buy. i don't know why, but i was just drawn to the pictures (not in a bad scurrie way ;)). but i didn't see any of them in the shelves, so i just moved on to other aisles. eventually, i came back, to see if i missed them, or if i could find any other cards i liked. i didn't...then melanie found me in that aisle and was lookin around the shelves. then, through her excellent nosy abilities (hahahaha...u said it!), she found a lil pad of paper that had a list of all the decks on display...and that they're all found behind the register counter. so i bought a deck...my first deck!

i decided on sunday nite to try my deck out...first, i read the lil manual that came with it...well, i glossed over some of the history stuff...i know, i'll read the whole thing eventually. so after i read how to do a spread, i gave it a go. i focused, asked my question ("will i find love/true love soon?" cheesy i know, but dude, get over it), then i shuffled the deck 6 times (minimum of at least 3, and i did 6 cuz well, it's a fresh deck, and it was still in order). So after i shuffled, i laid out my cards in the spread. and can i just say, i was taken aback. i'd like to think that maybe some higher being is messing with
me, cuz at the bottom of my deck, even the minor cards have a general name at the bottom. so one was love, 2 of cups. there was also fortune...but one to describe me was the heirophant. oOoOo. the overall spread, well, the stuff that's supposed to describe me, was hittin close to home.

now u may think, it's just a deck of cards, it can't tell your future! but if u think about it, the cards aren't really telling you you're future, they're just trying to guide you through the right path to your question/want of what could be. and it doesn't tell you all good stuff, or all bad stuff..it only tells you what could be if you choose a way, but also to beware of doing things the wrong way.

don't get me wrong, i'm not gonna base my life by the cards! it's just that it was REALLY creepy the way it told my situation. this got me thinking...it was prolly a fluke. it was my 1st spread, and the cards must've not been shuffled enough. i decided to give it a day, then do another kind of spread. so i went on the internet to find more about tarot, different spreads, possible books, etc. well it turns out that my deck was created by one of the most famous/controversial/notorious occultist. peachy keen. that made me feel REAL safe. oh well. i moved on, found more info, and read deck reviews...some say it's ok for beginners, other say it isn't, but one review struck me. it said to be careful with this deck. GREAAAAAAAAAAAAAT. yeaaaaaaaaaaah. i win. it's safe to say that i'll only use it one in a while with complex spreads. sheesh. i found more indepth explanations of the cards, which i'll use till i buy an adequate book. i wanted to find out what kind of other spreads would be ok to use with my deck...cuz some talk about reversals (when a card shows up up-side-down in a spread) and my deck doesn't really do reversals that way. that's wut the instructions said. it says that if there is something negative, it would be read in relation to surrounding cards (not all suits are comfy cozy with another, like wands and cups). cards can also strengthen each other (i.e. wands and sword)

anyhoo, i did a reading last night. i asked my question ("will 'he' be in my life/where will he be in my life?" cheese again, i know.), shuffled the deck 6 times, did a different spread pattern (celtic cross) and as craaaaaaazy as this sounds, i about half of the cards in the spread were in my last one. the other half, well, it was still good. no opposing suits. everything strengthening. meaning that i can get wut i want. if i go for it...within moderation. scurrie. but kewl ;)

so yah, this is my fun thing to do fer now. i won't take it super seriously, but i can't really deny the coincidences. it's a lil TOO close. hehehe. aight, this is all for now.OH YEAH! i got a real nice printer for $30! well, after i get my $40 rebate. but even if it was 70, it's still a pretty good price! kewwwwwwwwwwl. k, this is all fer now, really now! ;)


1. Not apt or fitting; inappropriate.
2a. Displaying a lack of judgment, sense, or reason; foolish: an inept remark.
b. Bungling or clumsy; incompetent: inept handling of the account.

so i think i'm correct in saying that i am romantically inept. or relationshiply inept. yes, relationhiply is not a word. fine. you get the picture.

anyways, let's recap on the week. other than it being tiring, some cool things HAVE happened. for instance, if you look to the right towards ..::Stuff::.. and set your sights towards ::..to see..:: you will see CBOT. That stands for the Chicago Board of Trade. an EXHILARATING thing to see, even tho i didn't get to go down to the floor. so much goin on, and it's so loud! but it was kewl...a must see! but now, if u don't ppl and u wanna visit, you have to make reservations for one. however, our new hire at the company used to work there, and still knows ppl there. so he took 2 of our clients that were here for training and i to see the action. tho we were only on the visitor's floor, it was still kewl to see. PLUS it was close enough to see some hot guys...cuz there are ;) and prolly a good amt of those people are BANKIN. daym.

and yesterday, thursday. well, my anak and my other friends came up from uofi to go to the car show and hang out at the apt (twan, juvy, topher, gabe and joseph!). we were really so happy they were here...it's like when we all get together (well, there are MORE of us that hang out than this), we get real happy :). so even tho i may have looked very far away...i was real happy they were here, and sad that they couldn't stay.... anyhoo, i had myself a total of about 6 drinks...no hangover, tho i was DAYM tired in the mornin. i actually had to wake up n shower cuz i didn't wanna smell like smoke. lessee...3 vodka crans, 1 champagne, 1 budlight, or was it 2...oh well. all that matters is that i'm not heavin in the bathroom.

and i got this from my friend sharone...it's really nice :).

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left.

Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh....Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself."

Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went his own way.

Love realizing how much he owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder. "Who helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because, only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."
-- Author Unknown

it's nice, right??? *sigh* =/ well, that's all i got for the moment. tomorrow, imma go to medieval times with my daddy, melanie and her parents, and hopefully my other cuzins too :).

to all the pro-v-day ppl, go on, have a great romantic day tomorrow.
to all the anti-v-day ppl, iss all good, down with v-day. stupid hallmark holiday.

i miss my sisters and my mommy.

changed da page again... i'm likin the shades of grey...gray, or grey? i like grey.

anyhoo, i went to the apartment today, the club over the lion head pub. why did i go? well, i just wanted to see some friends that came down from school. or up. wutever. :) it was real good seeing them...i miss seeing their faces, and talking to them face to face. aim just doesn't cut if for me. that's why i'm not on it anymore. i don't feel like talkin to ppl online. if they wanna talk to me, they can fuckin call me. ;)

but yah...we got there about 9:30pm, i had about 5 drinks, and i'm still sober. tight. cuz i'ze got werk tomorrow. yay.

gnite, sleep tight...


ah. so i've changed up mah page. the 'earth' edition, dedicated to redpac. he inspired me to go the earthy route, saying how calming it would be. next week, i'll go for the noir route possibly ;).

this wkd was very chill. good thing...i just haven't been in the mood. do u kno wut i want? i want fritos. and wut else i want? dark chocolate. yeah. so anyways, this wkd: friday, hung out with family, went home, played video games, then slept. saturday, hung out with liss @ like 4, went to Akai Hana for some sushi (shhhh! our parents don't know! ;)), then stopped by borders to check out some stuff. then we went to my house at like 6:30, ate my daddy's cookin, then at 7:30ish, we headed over to liss's for movie nite! yeah! sha came bearing dvds, and for the nite, we picked how to lose a guy in 10 days. GOOD chick flick cuz mayn, matthew mcconaughey is frickin HAHT...daym haht! *sigh* hehehe.

so sunday was just a chill day, go to church, stop over at maryhill, then go home, watch the morning cartoons i missed cuz i taped them (i moved one of the vcrs into mah room), and played more vid games...i really didn' feel like watching the grammy's this year. eh.

but yah. now, i'm eating some wonderful tiramisu. *drool* it's so good. homemade. *drooldrool*

ah. well this is it for now. if i simply NEED to write i will ;)

here's mah mutterins...at work...i'll write up sumthin nice fer u guys to read. :)

  1. Identity:: crisis
  2. Reveal:: the truth
  3. Live:: everyday
  4. Attitude:: spunk
  5. Night:: day
  6. Nevada:: las vegas
  7. Weekend:: vacation
  8. Write:: a letter
  9. Friend:: forever
  10. Seventeen:: magazine


lessee...it's too early to think. then when i get home, i'm too tired to go online. i just wanna watch tv. so WUT to watch this week...american idol, angel, friends, csi. i dunno about smallville anymore...it's kinda pissin me off. like everwood. sheesh. but angel should be good! and i prolly won't be watching american idol after this week...i think simon has run out of insults, so he's just been repeating everything. since he's repeating, it's just run out of all meaning. i dunno about this season! oh well.

but in angel, cordy's comin back! woohoo!!! i hope they keep her, but i don't keep up to speed on those things.

friends, well, it's the last season! it's a must watch!

and csi...oh csi...that show never fails to surprise me. i think they ALWAYS have a good story. and there's always the added plus of GEORGE EADS. ah. he's frickin HAHT. i looooooove the dimples and the smile...among other things *wainkwaink*. hahahahahaha...well, yah kno, even eric szmanda is cute (greg the lab techie).

so anyways, here's something for u to read about me.

::10 things u wish u knew how to do::
2.speak tagalog & capampangan fluently
3.play sports (actually HIT a baseball, make a basket, catch...i SUCK hehe)
4.sign language
5.play violin/cello/viola
7.eat right and actually enjoy it
8.move things with my mind
9.talk to animals :D
10.drive ;)


so this is another long post. i'm playin catch-up, but it's all good

cuz at least i'm writin, yah? :)

::Friday 5::

You have just won one million dollars:

1. Who do you call first?
my sisters. i will not pick one. u can't make me.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
for myself? hmmm...a new wardrobe ;) OR like christine, a kickass
computer...or at least a computer with like a gazillion gigs of memory

for all my mp3s

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
i'd pay off the mortgage on the house so it's all ours.

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
of course! family (help christine fully move out of MY room and buy her

a house, pay off claudine's loans, help marilyn through college, etc.)

then prolly donate a portion to american cancer society.

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
yes i would. shooooooooot...i'd ask someone i trust to do it for me cuz

dang i wouldn't know wut to do.


1. What is your full name: Fatima Sanchez Feliciano

2. What color pants are you wearing now: blue jeans

3. What are you listening to right now: "Flower Duet" from Delibes

Lakme - an opera for u uncultured folk ;)

4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number: 48

5. What was the last thing you ate: french bread n buttah

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be: um...brown??? hehehe

jk...i'd like to be silver :)

7. How is the weather right now: hmmm...i think it may be in the 20's!

yay! no more below zero!

8. Last person you talked to on the phone: ummmm...abigail!

9. Your favorite TV show(s): csi (lv), simpsons, angel, law n order,

without a trace, that 70's show

10. Do you like the person who sent this to you: i hate

christine...with a very deep and unbridled hatred. HAHAHAHA...JK! i

laab my seestair!

11. How are you today: tired. i love sleep.

12. Favorite drink: thai iced coffee, thai iced tea, milk, honey dew

bubble tea...

13. Favorite alcoholic drink: man, well, i love alcohol. so uh,

corona's for beer, guiness for ales, woodchuck for ciders, kalua on ice

for flavor, stoli raspberry cranberry, stoli raspberry lemonade, tanq n

tonic, wine, triple black, jager-bombs, car-bombs....and the list will

keep going...dammit. ;)

14. Favorite sports to watch: football, sometimes basketball, hockey's


15. Hair color: dark brown

16. Eye color: very dark brown

17. Do you wear contacts: yis.

18. Siblings: 2 older siblings, Christine n Claudine

19. Favorite month: i'd have to agree with christine, not only bc ppl

born in may are kick ass kewl, but also bc i love spring.

20. Favorite food: filipino food, alfredo, , Sushi, assorted desserts,

21. Last movie you watched: DVD: WhaleRider, THEATERS: The Lord of the

Rings, Return of the King

22. Favorite day of the year: my bday...well, nm, i don't have a

favorite day of the year.

23. What time did you go to bed last night? 1ish

24. Summer or winter: spring??? eh, again, i must agree with christine.

i'm more of a winter gurl than summer. me n summer really don't agree

too much...besides, i LOVE piling on the blankets n comforters.

25. Hugs or kisses: HUGS!!! everyone should at least get 15 hugs a day.

26. Chocolate or vanilla ice cream: choco-latte! i love chocolate!

27. Do you want your friends to write back: hey, that'd be kewl.

28. Who is most likely to respond: shoooooooooooooot, i dunno.

29. Who is least likely: i'll agree with christine again. claudine

shouldn't even be reading this, because she should be studying. ;)

30. What's under your bed: CHRISTINE'S STUPID CRAP. :D

31. What books are you reading: the lovely bones

32. What's on your mouse pad: um...at work, i don't have a mousepad.

33. Favorite board game: cranium, clue, scattergories, taboo, trivia of

pursuit (disney addition)...

34. What did you do last night: um, watched the superbowl, then my

other shows, then went to bed.

35. Favorite thing to do to pass time: watch tv, sleep, read, play

video games...

36. Can you touch your nose with your tongue: nopes.

37. What/who inspires you: well, i'm not inspired at the moment, so

nothing inspires me. on occasion, music can inspire things out of me.

38. Red, plain or salted popcorn: red???? the heck is that??? i like me

evenly salted on all kernels, drenched with butter. yummy buttah.

39. Favorite flower: orchids, roses, mini roses, and there's these

flowers that grow on a trellace in mah backyard that i love...

40. What I have to do to prepare for my day: nite b4, i think of/pick

out what i'm gonna wear. in the morning, just wake up. i don't do

anything special. i don't eat breakfast usually.

::unconscious mutterings::

Ignore:: deny
Death:: life
Missy:: elliot
Ballet:: jeoffrey (sp?)
Guest:: visitor
Campus:: wide
Lonely:: heartache
Company:: not lonely
Helicopter:: war
Sterile:: sad